I'm back after taking a few weeks off from computers & busy work. I took the time to focus inward and wrote some new music. I'm thinking about recording an acoustic EP in the next couple of months which would feature some of it. I've been dealing with a lot mentally and emotionally recently, and it really comes out in these songs. Hopefully, they will help someone else out there too.
Two weeks of my off time was spent cruising around Colorado, visiting with some venues, and attending MusicFest at Steamboat Springs. I played one show at Slopeside Grill while at the festival (many thanks to Rebecca Creek Whiskey for that opportunity). Other than that, as I mentioned, I've been in a down slump so I laid low, reflecting inward, writing, absorbing everything I could, and checking out some awesome songwriters.
On the way to a radio event in New Mexico, I stopped for the night in Santa Fe, NM to check out the town, try some food, and was planning on exploring some of the local cool sights/museums/etc. However, someone broke the window in my truck and stole a guitar, my gig bag, gopro, a couple of cameras (including one that was a very special present), among other items. After spending all day dealing with police & getting the window fixed, I had to cancel my appearance in Alamogordo, unfortunately. We will hopefully get that rescheduled for later this spring. I am currently fighting with the insurance on covering my items and that music is my hobby & therapy. I guarantee if someone had a couple of tools stolen out of their truck that they wouldn't have to go through 3 different layers of people to prove that they aren't a contractor, including proof of employment & financials. Thanks Farmers, this is ridiculous. Hopefully, I'll be back up and running 100% soon & I can give Farmers a big shout out. But, right now....total headache!!!
I would post pictures from Colorado & other places I visited on my time off but other than a couple of cell phone shots which have already been posted on my Facebook page & Instagram, most of them were on my big camera for my portfolio.
As many of you know, I suffer from PTSD, anxiety, and depression all rooted from or extenuated by my burn injury a few years ago. Because I'm all for being out in the open and as not-fake-as-possible for the pure motive of showing anyone else out there that they aren't alone....I'll disclose something right now. Just like many others with my "issues", once in a while, I go through a downward slump. When in one of these "slumps" what little sleep I normally get wavers down to almost nothing, I am unmotivated to do anything, I get quiet & recluse into hermit mode, being in crowds will cause panic attacks, my nightmares/terrors are at their worst, and previously this is when I would have turned to a whiskey bottle or pill bottle (or both) to help ease through the slump. Just like my burns, I just take it a day at a time, minute at a time, sometimes a second at a time....eventually it will pass, the sunshine will come back over me, and the silly, goofy, sunshiney me will be back. Sometimes it will last a day or two, occasionally it will take a couple months. I'm going on about a month now with this round.
Basically, if you feel this way, or deal with these things, you're not alone. Keep pushing on. It will always get better. If you see me out at a show, and I'm not as bouncy as usual, you know why. If I seem distant, you know why. I am so far away while being right here. However, I've written some great songs in this slump and while on the road. As mentioned previously, I'm thinking about doing an acoustic EP of sorts in the next few months. My favorite songs from the last few months are all so different from my full band in-your-face sound, that I think something more low-key would be the only way to do it justice. We'll see what comes of it, and where it takes us. If you would like to be a part of helping make this happen, please let me know.
I've got a bunch of Houston area shows coming up in the next few weeks, check out the Calendar tab above for details.
See y'all out there & thanks for sticking with me. Y'all are the best.